just a quote…

I am not the smartest, the prettiest, the richest, or the luckiest person in the world. But I know what I deserve. Not a second-priority. Not a second place. Not a least important person. Not anything but the best.

I am here, safe and sound. Be thankful that I am not chopping you alive, if you ever mess with me.

titik awal

Kegagalan sudah di depan mata, terinjak meninggalkan bekas.

Sisa pijakan yang tak pernah bisa dihapus, apalagi diulang kembali.

Tapi masih banyak cara untuk memperbaikinya.

Bagiku, mimpi adalah segalanya…..

pepatah “nasi telah menjadi bubur” itu hanyalah omong kosong belaka.

kumpulkan penyesalan untuk modal awal menggapai keberhasilan.

hidup itu tidak terbatas, hanya saja memiliki beberapa batasan yang wajib kita perhatikan, untuk menghindari penyesalan

 

내 언니….. 힘내!!!!!!

Good Friends are like a stars. you don’t always see them but you know they’re always here.

Seribu rasa terima kasih rasanya tidak cukup ya untuk orang ini, satu orang yang bisa membuat siapapun tenang –menurut saya. Perjalanan selama 3 tahun dari mulai saya tidak pernah mau masuk sekolah itu, memang mulanya kita tidak begitu dekat. Apalagi tidak pernah duduk di satu kelas yang sama. Tapi ketika suatu objek menarik kita untuk mempunyai topik pembicaraan yang sama. Bercerita sampai mulut berbusa, berputar pada topik yang sama bahkan tanpa rasa bosan. Sebenarnya saya sempat heran dengan hal ini, pada kenyataannya saya yang terlalu cerewet atau orang ini yang selalu sabar mendengar setiap rentetan kata-kata tidak penting yang saya ucapkan, ikut tertawa dengan setiap lelucon yang saya lontarkan padahal saya tau itu sama sekali kurang lucu. Iya kan?

Saya menganggap orang ini orang paling aneh di penjuru dunia, mungkin tidak akan saya temukan di dimensi lain. Mungkin saya hanya bertemu kali ini dan saya tidak berharap kita akan berpisah secepat ini.

Mba andin, tetap berjuang terus ya……

Perjuangan kita setahun ini harus memberikan senyuman. Bukan hanya untukku tapi untuk kita semua. Selalu lakukan apa yang kau ingin lakukan. Tetaplah bercerita ketika tengah malam dengan panjang lebar walaupun kau tau gadis di depanmu ini dengan kurang ajarnya telah berlari sendiri bersembunyi dalam alam mimpinya. Tetap lakukan itu jika itu membuat aku sedikit merasakan rasa bahagiamu waktu itu. –anggap aja bisa ya ndin ^^v

Tetaplah menangis di depanku walaupun kau tau bahwa gadis bodoh ini akan bertindak konyol setelahnya. Biarkan gadis aneh itu bernyanyi untuk berusaha meredakan kesedihanmu walaupun kau tau perbuatan itu sama saya membahayakan gendang telingamu……

Tetaplah menjadi satu-satunya orang yang aku anggap sebagai seorang kakak yang sempurna. Perjalanan ini belum berakhir, kita kehilangan sekolah tiga huruf itu. Kita terlanjur menggantungkan angan kita disana dan terlanjur kecewa. Tapi kau tau kan bahwa Allah SWT selalu punya rencana baik untuk seluruh umatnya? Jalan itu ternyata masih panjang ndin, mungkin kita tidak menemukan taman indah itu pada persimpangan ini tapi kita akan bertemu dengan taman yang lebih besar dan indah kan di persimpangan yang lain??

Mungkin aku bukan sahabat yang baik. Teman yang bodoh, seenaknya menelepon temannya yang sedang bersedih menyuguhinya dengan seribu kata konyol dan kata semangat yang tak henti. Karena hanya itu yang ada di otakku kemarin malam. Maaf ya 😀

Kembalilah menjadi Andhina yang selalu optimis, say no to galau dan bersiap untuk kegilaanku selanjutnya ya ndiiiiiiiin 😀 selamat bertemu di kehidupan nyata (?)

070712. 11:02 p.m

Ufa’s room. 

P.S maafin aku ya mba andin kemaren gabisa menghibur banyak. habis aku mau nyanyi malah ga boleh sama kamu 😥

Miss me (?)

oh god, miss you so much. this blog. reader *emang ada yang baca* kyaaaaaaaa. sebenernya banyak waktu senggang dari kemaren tapi udah ga ada pasion buat nulis lagi setelah beberapa minggu lalu nen=muin orang yang nge repost ff-ku tanpa minta izin dan seenaknya aja ngeganti main castnya. padahal aku ngebuat ff itu buat temen deket aku :(.

Hot Chocolate or Strawberry Milk -2nd cup-

Ku pandangi wajah yeojaku yang sedang terpejam. Tak terasa ada sedikit rasa bersalah aku padanya. Sementara di sebelahku raehoon sedang menarik tangan heechul yang sedang mabuk berat. Lalu mencoba membangunkannya.

“oppa!ireona, oppa!” rengeknya sambil menggoyangkan tubuh heechul.

“aish”  gerutunya saat gagal memapah heechul. Aku terkekeh melihatnya, ekspresi kesalnya. Continue reading

annyeoooong~~

saya kembali bukan bawa ff tapi mau sedikit ngubek-ngubek blog ini dan sedikit curhat

1. tentang resolusi 2011

– saya rasa tahun ini saya udah harus benar-benar fokus sama yang namanya pendidikan, sekolah, sama prestasi belajar saya, karena itu salah satunya yang bisa ngebuat orang tua saya bangga.

-ini adalah tahun ke-3 saya jadi “FREAK”, setidaknya saya sudah mulai bisa mengendalikan emosi saya yang tidak terlalu meledak dan mendramatisir suatu keadaan yang dulu sering saya lakukan

-di tahun 2010 saya merasa kalau Tuhan sangat mencintai saya,

* saya tidak pernah menyangka akan prestasi belajar saya yang meningkat, padahal kerja saya yang rasanya tidak sebanding dengan hasil akhir yang saya dapatkan. maka dari itu saya merasa sangat bersyukur.

*sebuah free tiket tiba-tiba melayang di depan tangan saya, jujur dari awal saya tidak pernah menginginkannya. dan lagi-lagi saya merasakan kebaikan tuhan di depan saya, saya rasa itu adalah suatu keajaiban. Alhasil saya bisa menonton SHINee dengan tenang (?)

 

2. Eunhyuk kiss with han SoRa

kalau kalian nanya siapa itu HAN SORA jangan tanya saya karena saya juga tidak tau, dan tidak mencoba untuk mencari tau di google ataupun di web browsing lainnya

 

yeoja itu yang berhasil membuat mood saya berantakan maka dari itu pembuatan ff my anchovy sedikit tertunda *bow*

E.L.F must READ !!!!

http://pann.nate.com/talk/310115213 을 토대로 번역하였습니다.
중간중간 스펠링 에러나 타이핑 에러가 있을지도 모르겠지만
의미전달에 큰 지장은 없을거라고 생각합니다,
나중에 더 좋은 정리본이 나올걸 기대하면서 우선 궁금한 해외팬들 이해를 돕기위해 발번역 하였습니다 

This is translation of writing done by E.L.F. http://pann.nate.com/talk/310115213“>http://pann.nate.com/talk/310115213
There might be some spelling error and typo here and there but hopefully it does its job explaning to foreign fans. Thank u.


※First of all, I like to make sure this is all writen by fan of Super Junior.

The first and the only intention of this is asking appropriate apology and compensation to Golden Disk Awards 2010
according to some doubtful points brougth up about award standard, so we hope there will be no misunderstanding or unpleasant dispute following.

“Few suspicions about GDA “

First, about their judging standard for winners.

GDA select 10 team for Main Award (5 for Disk Award, 5 for Digital Award) based on their sales volume of Disk and Digital source.
60% reflects the sales voume, 20% for internet vote and other 20% by judges’ evaluation.
The sales volume of Disk is based on data from domestic distribution company and wholesale/retail markets.
The sales volume of Digital source is total number of download / BGM from famouse online digital source websites.
A team who has the highest outcome for each Disk and Digital will win the Grand prize.

▶ Part of an article ‘Who will be next winner of 2010 GDA’ by ran@joongang.co.kr

The standard for ” Ceci popular award”  is not specified clearly. But in general, its been known that it is 100% result of popular vote.
No matter what, since it is called ‘The poplular Award’, it is justified that it should reflect only poputer vote 100%.


1, Yesung(Super Junior) – It has to be you (Digital Awards)

This song got the most vote and was ranked no. 1 of the vote for Digital Award.
This is the picture of state of vote on 2010/12/08 the day of GDA.

If you look closely and compare the percentage of first two (Yesung, LeeSeungGi) and others who follows next,
they are two intense competition while others have relatively low numbers.

However, in GDA 2010, there were five winners for this Award, LeeSeungGi, Miss A, IU, CNBLUE and 2AM.
However when you look at their results of vote, its only Lee:43.9%, Miss A: 0.1%, IU: 0.1%, CNBLUE 0.6% and 2AM: 1,7%.

They are saying the vote result if only 20% for selection so lets see the sales volume which must be 60%.
This is comparison between Yesung and Lee who were keen competitor and the winner.

This is the chart from Music Bank, there is “Yesung-It has to be you” on no.4 and no LeeSeungki.

This is chart of Mobile ringtones from 2009/11/30 to 2010/11/30. “Yesung-It has to be you” is on no.15.
You can see other LeeSeungGi’s song on the chart (no.24) but no “Love taught me to drink” which was the one he got the prize with.

This is the chart of Mobile Ring back tone from 2009/11/30 to 2010/11/21.
“Yesung-It has to be you” is on no.4 while LeeSeungGi is on 10ths.

This is chart of evaluation for the first half year 2010.
“Yesung-It has to be you” is on no.12 while “LeeSuengGi-Love taught me to drink” is on no.27.

If you see all these data, Yesung who did not get the Digital award was actually more qualified than Lee who won.
This is only the comparison of two who were very keen competitor in the popular vote.
I apologize to fans of Lee for comparing these two, but it comes to the front that there was no reason for Yesung not to win.


2. Ceci Popular Award.

Like I said earlier, there is nowhere criteria for the Popular award is specified.
However, since this is ‘The Popular’ award to judge how popular they are to the people. It should reflect result of popular vote 100%.
Last year, It went to SHINee and Super Junior who were #1 and #2 of the popular vote.


You can see they won it through the GDA website. (http://isplus.joinsmsn.com/goldendisk/kr/history/award_2009.html)
However, this year, even though the result of vote was same as the last year (#1 SHINee #2 Super Junior), It was SHINee and SNSD who won the Ceci Popular Award.

The gap between #2, SuperJunior and #3 SNSD was also very visible.

You can see the gap between those two is almost 16%.

Super Junior actually got MSN Asia Popular Award earlier of the ceremony.
However, If you look at the result of vote for MSN Asia Popular Award,
the gap between Super Junior and the other teams were just too huge and obvious to anyone else would win the prize but them.

And also, there is no statement saying “You can not win both Ceci Popular Award and MSN Asia Popular Award”
or ” You can not win Ceci Poupular Award if you already won the MSN Asia Popular Award” on their website or press release.

This vote was done without distinction of Male/Female, and also there is no statement saying it will be one Male Group and one Female Group to be winners.
Also, for GDA 2009 last year, two winners were SHINee and Super Junior, both male group so there is actualy no explanation for giving the prize to SNSD instead of Super Junior.

For the last but definitely not the least, this popular vote actually CHARGE the money for voting.
300won per ARS phonecall vote (app. 25 cents for US dollars) and 500won (app. 40cents) for Wireless vote.

Since it also relates to actually money problem, it could be developed as a lawsuit in the future.

(Here is the example of legal statement that could be made out of this.)

There is money owed to us and GDA since we payed for certain votes for Popular award.
GDA, the debtor, actually has obligation to award the Ceci Popular award.
Also, since we became consumer by paying certain price, we have right to know.
We were supposed to be noticed before
that MSN Asia Popular Award and Ceci Popular Award cannot be awarded together.
It is a violation of our right to know since we have never got any notice.
Furthermore, even though we have good reason to win it
because of GDA’s mistake, it creates bad impression about Super Junior to the public
saying they are not worth to win the Popular Prize.
And it also creates defamation on both Super Junior and us.
(written by 온새미로 ‘13정수헬러’ http://cafe.daum.net/manful24/)

Therefore, it all explains that there was no reason for Super Junior not to get “Ceci Popular Award” ,
how it actually damaged fans financialy and how it actually makes legal relationship between fans and GDA.


3. Disk Award Grand Prize

Disk Award Grand Prize went to SNSD for GDA 2010.
As I mentioned earlier, Golden Disk Disk Award is 60% of sales volume, 20% of popular vote and 20% of judges’ decisions.

First, let’s look at the result of Popular Vote

As you see, Super Junior outspaced SNSD by 11.6%.

Now, let’s compare the sales volume for two of their disk.
This is article saying there is major chance that Super Junior will win the GDA Disk Grand Prize for two years in a row.

*Translation

There are major chance for Super Junior to win GDA Disk Grand Prize for two years in a row.

The Golden Disk Award, which made to be 25th years by now, select their winners according to sales volume of Disk and Digital source.
It seems like Super Junior who was the winner of GDA 2009 has the most selling record this year by far too.

According to Hanteo chart, Super Junior 4th Album ‘BONAMANA’ version A has been sold 131,946 disk between 2010/01/01 to 2010/12/08 and ranked as No.1.
There is SNSD whose 2nd Album ‘Oh!’ is on No.2 but there aer 8,000 disk difference between ‘Oh!’ and ‘BONAMANA’.
This time the repackage album will be also counted for the GDA. According to the chart, repackage of Super Junior 4th has been sold 45,412 disks and repackage of SNSD 2nd has been sold 56,543 disks.
Actually Super Junior’s 4th Album was also released as v.2 which has been sold 48,368 disks.

GDA annouced ‘Hoot’ by SNSD relased on October has been sold 91,544 disks but it will not be conunted since it was not on the chart when nominees were selected.

In GDA, there is also popular vote part which is 20%. At this point, Super Junior is voted 34.5% and ranked as no.1 while SNSD is voted 22.9% as no.2.
However, it is very clear that gap is more than 10% and make Super Junior outspaced SNSD by 11.6%.

Super Junior won Disk Grand Prize at GDA 2009, last year.

▶ Part of an article by KimEunKu from EDaily SPN.
(http://spn.edaily.co.kr/entertain/newsRead.asp?sub_cd=EA21&newsid=01249686593196880&DirCode=0010201)

There are many other evidence that is obvious.
This is the actual chart from Hanteo data base.
You can see clearly that Super Junior sold much more disks than SNSD.

There are many arguments about repackage album and album version B, but there is not clear specification on any page of GDA website or press realease.
BONAMANA version A and B has exactelly same songs listed so actually it is very hard to tell that they are two seperate album.
And as you read from the article, SNSD’s latest single ‘Hoot; was not counted for the award.

However, we could find this article after the Award ceremony.

Translation
SNSD and 2AM got the honor of winning GDA grand prizes.
On December 12th, at the 25th Golden Disk Award held in Korea University, SNSD won the Disk Award Grand prize and 2AM won the Digital Award Grand prize.
SNSD won the prize for their songs ‘Oh!’ and ‘Hoot’ and 2AM won it with ‘Even if i die…’, ‘You wouldn’t answer..’ and ‘Like Grazy’.
Therefore, SNSD got the double crown from last year, 2AM who was the first nominee for GDA acutally won the Grand Prize.

▶ Part of an article by khj@etoday.co.kr.

First of all, the biggest problem is that GDA never inform exactelly which album is being counted for the prize even though they have been overemphasize their fairness on selecting winners.

It means they actually have very ambiguous standard which could be changed anytime for any intension.
If GDA informed this clearly and early, there would be no arguments about this and no cofusion between even reporters to write different articles.

We actually also found this on some website..

*translation
It is about the judges’ point for the prize which is 20% out of 100.
According to this, it is saying SNSD is selected as winner by judges through 3 levels of evaluation because of being as icon of Korean pop

and efforts to enhance the nation’s status for being great success over japan.

However,
Super Junior’s popularity and influence throughout oversea easily exceed SNSD on 2010.
Even though there was no actual activity or public appear, they already own huge number of fans in Japan and leads Super Junior – K.R.Y concert in Japan.
They has been also ranked as no.1 in not only Korea, Japan and China but also all around Asia such as Thailand, Malaysia, Singapore etc.
Also it was very surprising to fans to see they were very popular in Brazil and Arab States with no public appear or promotion at all.

http://mbn.mk.co.kr/pages/news/newsView.php?category=mbn00007&news_seq_no=1013025
▶ Article showing the popularity in Brazil

http://www.kgbnews.kr/sub_read.html?uid=17488
▶ Article showing the popularity in Arab states

As you see Super Junior already dominate the market world wide over Asia.
Therefore, It is hard to understand why judges would evaluate the value of Super Junior less then SNSD.

(+Add)
We heard this was not actually from the the judge, but we still want to say, it is true that SNSD has been very succesful over the year,
but Super Junior was also very successful or even more.
So We are saying, it is very hard to understand, the judges decision could be the reason for them not winning the Grand prize even though we all do not know exactelly how judges tought.


4. for the Last, the reaction of other Musicians in the ceremony.

After the break, Super Junior didnt come back to the hall until the Popular Award.
Also, right before the Grand Prize award, their manager whispherd something to Leeteuk and other Members.
After this secret whispers, it was very hard to tell their face was happy and their face all frozen really fast. Makes us wonder.. what was that whispher all about?

After SNSD went up the stage for the prize, other musicians come to Super Junior, not SNSD, and hugged them.
We all know Super Junior has lots of friends but still it is weird that everyone hugged Super Junior while there is actually winner on the stage.

For the last, right before the announcement for the Grand Prize, there was applause and cheer shouting Super Junior from the audience.
When members heard it, they didnt seem happy at all.. We all wonder why..

These are all very suspicious and different actions and situation compare to other Award ceremony.
However, these reaction things are only assumption so we will not talk about it too much.

For ending, I like to cite the Golden Disk Award website, saying..

‘Digital Award’ is the award to let people know which musician was the most loved through out the whole year to meet the trends of the times
where Digital source market is expanding as massive number of people prefers it.
We select winners by fair evaluation according to data provided by reading company that has pure public confidence.

However, because of those reasons and proofs mentioned above (1,2,3), we question that Golden Disk actually select the winners by FAIR evaluation.
So, us, E.L.F (Super Junior Fan Club) demands GDA to reveal the exact standard for each award and prize to the public and reward financial damage especially for Ceci Popular Award votes.

E.L.F 슈랑이☆

 

(http://bbs3.telzone.daum.net/gaia/do/starzone/detail/read?articleId=8317548&objCate1=22&bbsId=S000001&forceTalkro=T&pageIndex=1)

This is not just some fans whining

According to the data we collected, GDA almost swindle fans out of their money.
We all know it is once in a year ceremony.
People will forget about it and one year later, we will be same fan voting for the same thing, so you might wonder what the big deal about it is
However, if there will be no action taken by GDA even after we spread this evidences and explanation through
we are ready to cope strictly and legally with this matter in regard to right of voters, viewers and all the musicians who attended.

 

SOURCE: http://sj-market.com/bbs/view.php?id=GDA&page=1&page_num=20&select_arrange=headnum&desc=&sn=on&ss=on&sc=on&keyword=&no=211&category=

now, I know why they shed many tears ;__;